the heart of a poet

" . . . seek those which your own everyday life offers you; describe your sorrows and desires, passing thoughts, and the belief in some sort of beauty-- describe all these with a loving, quiet, humble sincerity. . ."

Name: Camille

Friday, February 28, 2003

Everybody ought to have a poem, penned by another's hand, that speaks for them.

And just because I'm a chronic overachiever, I'll give you two. So, do share-- what are your signature poems?

Alone, I whet my soul against the keen
Unwrinkled sky, with its long stretching blue
I polish it with sunlight and pale dew
And damascene it with young, blowing leaves
Into the handle of my life I set
Sprays of migonette,
And periwinkle,
Twisted into sheaves.
The colours laugh and twinkle
Twined bands of roadways, liquid in the seen
Of street lamps and the ruby shine of cabs
Glisten for my delight all down its length;
And there are sudden sparks
Of morning ripplings over tree-fluttered pools
My soul is fretted full of gleams and darks
Pulsing and still.
Smooth-edged, untarnished, girded in my soul
I walk the world.

But in its narrow alleys,
The low-hung, dust-thick valleys
Where the mob shuffles its empty tread
My soul is blunted against dullard wits
Smeared with sick juices
Nicked impotent for other than low uses
Its arabesques and sparkling subtlties
Crusted to grey, and all its changing surfaces
Spread with unpalpitant monotonies.

I re-create myself upon the polished sky
A honing stop above converging roofs
The patterns show again, like buried proofs
Of old, lost empires bursting on the eye
In hieroglyphed and graven spleandour
The whirling winds brush past my head
And prodigal once more, a reckless spender
Of disregarded beauty, a defender
Of undesired faiths,
I walk the world.

--Amy Lowell, La Vie de Boheme.

They say that women change; tis so: but you
Are ever constant in your changefulness,
Like that still thread of falling river, one
From source to last embrace in the still pool
Ever-renewed and ever-moving on,
From first to last a myriad of water-drops
Are you-- and I love you for it-- for you are the force
That moves and holds the form.

-- R.H. Ash, Ask to Embla, XIII
(A.S. Byatt, Possession)

Thursday, February 27, 2003

Mr. Rogers died today.

Goodbye, Fred. I hope the trolley ride into the Land of Make Believe is an easy one for you.

P.S. Meow meow's favorite was Henrietta Pussycat.

Wednesday, February 26, 2003

Kara made this up.
What celebrity does your dad look like? I’m not telling. Two people know already, and it’s too scary for words. (Damn that picture. Damn it to Jane-Austen-Sequel-Land)
Do you like doughnuts? Rarely.
Do you hate when businesses replace 'C's' with 'K's' like 'Krispy Kreme'? Yes. Those who do it can DIE.
What are you singing? "I am out of my mind, I am out of control, full of feelings I can’t define.” Jekyll and Hyde.
What's your MSN name and explain it, please. Roxie. “I’m gonna be a celebrity, that means somebody everyone knows. They gonna recognize my eyes, my hair, my teeth, my boobs, my nose!”
Guilty pleasures? Got any? Yes. Chocolate, romantic comedies, Harry Potter slash, dancing to Hot Honey Rag and Roxie, lip-syching to Bruce Springsteen. (it’s in my blood. . . )
Favorite piano piece to play/listen to? Chopsticks. On a baby grand.
Random favorite thing? Flimsy gold/silver shoes.
Collect anything? Music boxes, stuffed animals, hats, and handbags (especially vintage ones. . . )
Favorite candy? Toblerone. Love Toblerone.
You can only wear one designer for the rest of your life. Who is it? Vera Wang.
Give me a line from a movie. "I’m nobody’s little weasel.” Amelie.
Be a TV character. . . . Charlotte from SATC. Just because I can.
One thing you can't stand? SWMNBR-esque things.
Have any hidden talents? I’m not a half-bad photographer.
That's the end, babies.

Outside it's just little pin-pricks of cold on my hands, and everything is washed out with slush and pale beige-grey ice, like God is feeling particularly melancholy today. People turn different when it's snowing. They huddle inside themselves, and push angrily at heavy glass doors, greedily tucking slivers of warmth into wool-lined pockets. And I, with my tired eyes that stream hot tears and scratchy throat, can feel everything in my limbs, the frustration sinking down to my bones. It's like reading Keats, who veritably sends off clouds of flower-shop perfume from his pages. There's too much, too much for my weak eyesight to take in (my glasses, I'm told, turn the world hollow for those who see the world clearly). I end up flinging his poems aside, smothered with his ferns and roses. I need quieter places-- little, faintly chilled corners in a library, where people don't stomp dirty ice near my feet. There I can read sharp, plunging stories and not worry about drowning in scented waves.

Tuesday, February 25, 2003

Excerpted from a conversation with Nita.

Me: Why does everyone I know have a boyfriend except me?
Nita: . . . I don't know?
Nita: At least you've got. . . Snape.
Me: . . . .
Me: Thanks.

Sunday, February 23, 2003

I don't know if I've mentioned this lately, but I really love Chicago.